I know its been waaaay too long since I have regularly posted. I am really hoping to change that. A lot has been happening in life, both positive and negative, and I am really hoping that this next chapter involves a lot more blogging.
So, what have I been up to?
Well, I graduated high school a while ago, and have been taking some college classes (composition and an algebra class…). I am going towards an Associates in Arts, which I hope to use towards a bachelor’s degree in English education, literature, or something along those lines.
I have been fighting OCD. I was officially diagnosed a couple years ago, and was self diagnosed before that. OCD is not an obsession with neatness or cleanliness; it is a monstrous illness that attacks your brain with horrendous thoughts or feelings that refuse to go away unless you act out a compulsion (like washing your hands to rid yourself of an unlikely contamination from your fish tank that you didn’t even touch). A side affect is anxiety, which is sometimes very severe. It wears me down sometimes, and although I am definitely getting better, I am still learning how to cope with this illness.
I got my own puppy. Her name is Mocha and she is going to help me cope with a lot of my OCD and anxiety. She is still a puppy so she is a lot of work, but she is very sweet and friendly, and very good on my dog allergies.
I am almost 20,000 words into my novella (or novel, depending on how long I can make it). It has seen many changes and updates over the years, but right now I am in the process of extensively editing it.
I moved in with my grandparents and have my own bedroom for the first time in my life. I now have three pet fish: Shakespeare Bronson Javert, Timmy, and Kingston Peter.
I recently had a breakup which was really hard on me. God has remained faithful through all this, and it definitely has had some positive elements to it, but it is still very hard and something that is taking me a while to get over.
I’m trying to change my life choices and get back on track. I had been neglecting enjoyable things in my life besides my phone and tv, and that really had a negative impact on my life. So, I’m trying to journal more regularly, blog, play guitar (I hardly know anything right now), write, read…do something else that is not social media or games. TV and phones aren’t necessarily bad unless it takes the place of more important people or things, like God, family, pets, hobbies that help to encourage the gifts God has given you or help you to become more productive with your time. One of my absolute favorite people knew I needed a break from technology, so this past week I was limiting my technology a lot more, and it really helped. I noticed that I had a relapse when I used the app for my Bible to check up on people and saw something that made me jump to conclusions about my old boyfriend, but I fixed the problem of seeing what my ex was reading and who he was becoming friends with and etc, and I have been feeling better again.
Words, Words, Words! 